I am so grateful for what Christ did on the cross. Being in this vineyard would be living in a world with God's love withdrawn. I couldn't bear that.

Isaiah 5:5-6
And now I will tell you
what I will do to my vineyard.
I will remove its hedge,
and it shall be devoured;
I will break down its wall,
and it shall be trampled down.
I will make it a waste;
it shall not be pruned or hoed,
and briers and thorns shall grow up;
I will also command the clouds
that they rain no rain upon it.
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