I cried when I read this again. A few years ago I felt just as Elijah did. I asked God to let me die. God knows whether it was depression or world weariness or a blessing. But also as Elijah did, I heard a still small voice. It said, “I need you to live.” From there I have become a better person, spouse, and neighbor. I am closer to God. I share the joy of my salvation. It is enough.

But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness and came and sat down under a broom tree. And he asked that he might die, saying, “It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life, for I am no better than my fathers.” And he lay down and slept under a broom tree. And behold, an angel touched him and said to him, “Arise and eat.”

1 Kings 19:4-5 Bible Gateway Link

(For context) 1 Kings 19:4-18 - Biblegateway link: RSVCE