You may be holding on by a thread, perhaps you should let go. Trust. "He will come and save you." Saving yourself is God's job, not yours.

Isaiah 35:3-4
Strengthen the weak hands,
and make firm the feeble knees.
Say to those who have an anxious heart,
“Be strong; fear not!
Behold, your God
will come with vengeance,
with the recompense of God.
He will come and save you.”

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